Dan had a psychological evaluation the other day.
I used to leave these feeling defeated, concentrating on everything he couldn’t do, milestones he should have met years ago, still un-met. But I didn’t feel that way today. I know what he can do, I know what I can continue doing, and I know what God has done and will do. And when I have this “can do ” attitude, my emotions are protected, my spirit remains intact, I am held together.
I don’t think it was a coincidence that Dan ran,and sat underneath this Mark Rothko reproduction as we arrived in the psychologist’s office. I have learned to really appreciate his work in recent years, his paintings held together by color and light. He says about his own work, “the people who weep before my paintings are having the same religious experience as when I painted them.” Upon seeing this work, I didn’t cry but I felt a calm presence. Rothko also says that he “paints the finite and the infinite.” Where my finite, futile efforts end, God’s infinite power, in Dan’s life, continues.